Of the 345 blog posts I have written this is one of the easiest—and the most difficult—to write.
Earlier this month I became inexplicably bothered in heart and mind. I grew edgy and unhappy and I couldn't figure out why.
So I took long walks.
I conferred with the dearest of the dearest people in my life.
I conversed with myself.
I consulted God.
And, finally, an answer came.
The Sick Little Boy
When I started blogging, I had a sick little boy (read here). Uncertainty and fear had set up camp on the doorstep of my psyche. Blogging became an outlet—a quiet escape from the storm. I needed to learn so much so quickly, and I gratefully received so much help, knowledge, and support from so many of you in this forum. Blogging has been a source of great blessing for through it I have made friendships that will last a lifetime. My work has been picked up, published and read by millions. It inspired me to write a cookbook that I am immensely proud of. I even got to speak with First Lady Michelle Obama.
So what was the deal?
Why, all of a sudden, did my laptop become a ball and chain. Why did the thought of sitting down to create another recipe, take another photo, and write another post leave me dejected? Was it a temporary case of blogger burnout?
The End of a Chapter
I came to the realization that the very thing that once centered me was now unsettling me and that as all chapters do, this one was coming to an end.
Each chapter in life comes with a new set of challenges, adventures and demands, and in each chapter there is a balance that must be found. I am afraid that if I continue at this pace, my spirit will break. Miss Type A here would love to be that mythical Super Mom who effortlessly can do it all—take care of others, take care of herself, keep a house, prepare three meals a day, run a business, volunteer at school and blog. But I can't. I just can't. And oh my, how liberating it is to push pride aside and admit that.
In many ways I feel like I have given myself the greatest of gifts. The OK to let go of things that need letting go of and to open the door to new experiences that will shape the next chapter of my life. And the beautiful part? By giving myself this gift, I will be happier and more capable of turning around and giving to others in new ways.
So what it all boils down to is that I will be taking a hiatus from blogging and stepping away from the computer.
I am going to learn to breathe again. I am going to be present for my husband, kids, and friends. I am going to go hiking. I am going to cook others' recipes. I am going to garden to my heart's content. I am just going to "be" for a while.
For how long? I do not know.
For four years we have met in this place and I am grateful. When I return to blogging and social media it will be because I feel it is time, and when I do you’ll likely see a little less "gluten-free, dairy-free and egg-free" and a little more "composting, travel and yoga!"
Let's Keep In Touch
Not to worry, I am not dropping off the planet and you can bet I will miss you. So for those who would like to stay in touch, here's how we can do that.
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I hope you will keep up with me there.
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If you really get to missing me and haven’t bought my book, Everyday Classics,
pick up a copy and I'll be right there with you in your kitchen!
The content here at Lexie's Kitchen will remain and I hope you will continue to use it and my cookbook as resources in your kitchen. I will check in every once in a while and will reply to questions and comments as I can.
Geeesh, this is hard. If I could hug each one of you and thank you in person I would. For now, I will sign off with a big XO.
I love you and treasure you.